I need something else. . .

My weakest time.Is really really weak.I need something which i myself also don know what is the thing that i wan and i need.The most bad thing was that i scored a really "GOOD" results which everyone could not believe,but thats truth.Coz of that,i cant do things that i really wan.I m not clever,not diligent as others do,Im really nothing.I noticed that im dreaming all the time instead of doing something.And this is me,the idiot me.I have wasted a long long time to do something that i feel like will be worthy,but today,now,i don really dare to be so confidence with that,everything as well.Nothing is perfect in this world,things might change in the mean time,anytime,anywhere,anyone.WE DON KNOW.Some people tell me this is faith,some say this is life,some says this is SAMSKARA,well i believe this.i believe all this.Today im doing something very very wrong,and im trying to recorrect the mistake.I don want anything to go nad or even worse.I dont wan,but I really got no idea what to do,how to do.Is complicated,nothing simple !I step in the wrong house,I wish that I can step out earlier.But there is not even a single chance.I regret
A pretty good and new house come to me,i wish to go into it,but is really hard,theres too much security guide over there.So i have to really take sometimes to step in if i really wan to.Is really a sad thing.I really wish to give out myself and let others to bring me into those house that really suits me,I don know where to go,what to do.Love wasnt everyting for me now,is tired to be in love=)I guess everyone of you sensed this before if u still havent got the one who can really have the same lifestyle with you.I wish i got one,but is tough. But is not important anymore,is all depends what HE give.What HE plan,what HE give,im ok i will take it easy.Today im here to talk to myself but not anyone.So those who is reading my heart,thanks.Those who wan me to improve my english thanks as well,i WILL.thanks for everything in this world that is meant for me.
IN HIM,
SUSHANTII@carolyn

THAT NIGHT THAT SHOW !

1. 

The photo that i love the most !THE PINK AND THE RED !!!!!!!!!^^
THE HAPPY moment !HE is a good guy(zi fa)
In this cheongsam,i drove 3 guys to KFC that night !what a nightmare !ha ha

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!THE OLD AND THE YOUNG MODELS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The school talent night performance

CHOIR LIFE !

Ling s family ..Hooi Ling and Yi Ling ^^
CAROLYN N FION ! hm...this two girl got contrast characteristic...totally totally contrast
SPEECcccccccccccccchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhLESS !
The one with spectacles screwing those in wHites !(why u all wear white colour,i say black ma)ha ha ha ha ha^^lets laugh
the left guy: Oii !!!!
the 2nd left guy:you this old man,stop d ha !
the 3rd left guy:OK ! u....U !!!!
the 2nd right guy:HAHAHA...u say BLACK ,we say WHITE !HAHAH
the little boy:WHatever la,as long as i can fit up ah john's shirt !
The 2007 spm candidates were doin revision before the choir practice !and very sure chen pang was just ACTING in front of the camera..so dun have to pity him^^
Dia ni pengerusi tau ke ?pengerusi dan jurulatih..haha !
.....................................The choir's creator.............................
ESTHER!!!!!!!!! Our choir teacher
they are good fren!!!!!!!!
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One is acting cool..and one is trying so badly to be happy..haha.but i know that both of them were happy that time !
Haaa....happy

I duno what we both try to act..
perhaps we are too ugly..

2009 - 5 =2004

YEA,I really duno what THIS GIRL DOING.yucky !(WELCOME TO SINGAPORE,she tot that she is the air stewardess,what to do?hahahha !)
This is unique ~LEGO !
Judge yourself ^^
SOmewhere in the musuem..the ugly carolyn and the cute brother !He is so cute !act like dai lou..and i duno what i look like !sucks !hehhee,but i miss those time,im pure ! ! hiak hiak hiak
If you re not laughing then i got nothing to say .. the SHY ASS!

Where is this?who is this?haha.honestly i duno where is this but i know that i was somewhere in singapore that time..and bout the kid,if i'm not wrong,he got up to the bus that i got up and we have our vacation trip to singapore together !haha
what a nice and cute kid !nice to see him in the photo again as i have lost those picture and i found it back few days before this..hm.

WELCOME TO CAROLYNKIDSFORLIFE'S LIFE

This is the fat and funny carolyn.haha.The blue tie shows that i was a prefect when i was in standard 4 if im not wrong.what a "cute"prefect that u got no chance to meet anymore ! ha ha .Shes still alive. . .Shes growing . . . . But shes aint funny anymore?bringing her back to the path of bliss ! ! ! ^^WELCOME TO MY LIFE